| Sigh |
[Jul. 3rd, 2005|12:03 pm] |
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| |  sleepy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | nothing I just woke up | ] |
Sometimes I wonder if I can figure out guys as well as I would like to. For example there is a guy that I like right now. But I cant quite gage whether he has feelings for me or not. I mean we have been having e-mail conversations all weekend. They are just short one liners and it was started by me. However he sent the last one that wasnt sparked by anything I said. The more I get to know him the more I begin to genuinely like him. I'm just afraid that he is going to think that I am too young for him. Though I think thats absolute crap cause he isnt that much older than me. But iono. I mean I'm not quite ready to get into a relationship so its ok if it takes me a while to figure this out. The only problem I have is that we might be going our separate ways soon and I dont know if I will ever see him again after that. Hmmmmmmmmmm.
On a happy note I made good money at the bar last night. I love bartending its the greatest. Maybe in september I'll see if I can bartend somewhere else and make even more money than I already do. |
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| Ahh how things go upside down |
[Jul. 2nd, 2005|02:01 pm] |
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| |  flirty | ] |
| [ | music |
| | nothing...having a quite day | ] |
Wow a lot of shit has happened. Let me tell them....
1. I can no longer attend Queens University. Which sucks but I think I will be ok with it. I dont have the money to go here anymore and I cant take out another loan. So that aint going to happen. I'll prolly go to CP for a semester and then head on to UNCC. That should be fun right? Yup. I'm pretty optimistic about it. This could be a nice break I need.
2. Stephen has put me on the level of Hunter and Ryan. Which is very impressive cause they are his best friends. I like being the cool ex-girlfriend. And I love that he is still in my life. In fact its quite awesome. I think that I have gotten over him though. I really dont have the desire to call or text him as much as I did and that's a really good sign.
3. I still love my internship. And it just gets better. I am now becoming friends with some of the players and that's just fun to say "This is my friend Jeff he plays baseball for the Knights." Hee hee. I think the people I work with. And I hope that I might be able to get a job in the fall.
4. I'm developing a crush on Tim who works with me. I dont know what it is about him but I think he is adorable. Who knows what will happen with that. I plan on taking things slowing with that one
5. Me and Milkshake are moving into our own place. We dont know where. But I will let you all know. I promise.
Other than that. Things are going well. I'm like being without a boy that is stressful. I mean I love him and all but I definietly think we make much better friends. Things could change one day and something could happen again. But he's my best friend. Well time to relax before I bartend. |
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| I Love Food |
[Jun. 22nd, 2005|10:25 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  full | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Faint South Park | ] |
So my friend Jon who is a chef made me the most awesome dinner tonight and I am now very full. Very Very Very Very Very Very Full. You all should be jealous.
I am no longer feeling as ill as I was feeling. I have gotten slightly better. I think it could be all the medicine that I have tried to take. I still have a slight cough and am a bit congested but on the whole I am feeling much better. Yes I am. Thanks for asking.
My life is going quite good. Stephen gets a little weird every so often but I have to remember that its just how he is and its not really personal. He will call me back eventually or at least answer his phone eventually it just might take a while cause he is a dumb ass. Yes me and him are friends and yes we do hang out. I'm sorry but that's just how it is people. I appreciate all you have done for me though and I have taken all your advice into consideration. But like Chris said, every break up is different it just depends on the people. Currently I am happy with my situation and I think eventually I wont be so attached to him.
Well I guess that's all. Oh and if you dont have the new foo fighter album you should. It rocks my socks off. |
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| Being Sick Sucks |
[Jun. 20th, 2005|10:16 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Daily Show | ] |
So I am still sick in fact I think that I am getting worse. I mean by now I should be feeling better but i'm not in fact I feel horrible. This cough has now settled in my chest and hurts so fucking bad that I just want to crawl into a hole and die. Ok well maybe I am being as over dramatic as Stephen says. But at the same time I hate being sick and having no one to take care of me. I guess I'll be ok though. I mean people care about me they just dont have time to take care of me. However Stephen said he might bring me movies and visit me. That will be nice. Especially cause I think I have angered him. But I guess I can just ask him when he gets here. That is if he is nice enough to take care of little old me. But who knows. I just want it to be known that he is way more confusing than a girl and I have no idea what he wants in us. I mean Wednesday thru Saturdays he seems to like me and then Sunday thru Tuesday he seems to want nothing to do with me. And I am not exageratting about that. I think I am just going to let him be a brat. I think he likes to lead people on. Or maybe there is something deep rooted in it. All I know is my friend Jon is making me dinner tomorrow night and that's awesome. While I am not considering it a date its still going to be nice to hang out with a guy other than Stephen. Some day all this will make sense right? I hope so. |
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| Sick |
[Jun. 18th, 2005|12:55 pm] |
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| | sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Nothing | ] |
So people let me give you all some advice in return for all the advice you gave me.....
The world works in mysterious ways and there is a reason for everything. When something bad happens dont blink cause you might just miss the good thing that will come next. Just because something is over doesnt mean you have to give up, stick to your guns and things will work out in a way that will make you just as happy as you were before. And if things crumble at the end, sweep the pieces under the rug and leave them there for another day when you feel like doing a puzzel.
That's all I got. |
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| Blah |
[Jun. 17th, 2005|12:45 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Nothing I'm at the stadium | ] |
So I woke up today feeling like ass. I'm having trouble swallowing cause there is so much nasty shit lodged in my throat that it is making me gag. I really think that I am going to throw up by the end of the day. To make things worse I have to work the game tonight and that should be fun yes. But IONO how that will work what with me gaggin all the time. I just want to go home and crawl into bed and just sleep.
Neone have any quick at home remedies? Cause that would be great it you did
Its almost my turn for lunch YAY!!!!!!!!
Quiznos here I come. |
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| Sigh |
[Jun. 16th, 2005|12:34 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | sleepy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Nothing but the nice silence | ] |
So I made a big step today in the Mel getting over Stephen. I deleted him from my phone. Its not for good its just until I see him again next friday. I mean I have this habit of picking up my phone for something and texting him. I need to stop that. He doesnt know he's deleted and he would if he would have called me back like I nicely asked him to. But he hasnt. So we will see how long it takes for him to try and figure out what has happened to me. I honestly think that he wont care. But maybe I'll get lucky and he'll call me back. Who fucking knows and I have really lost all sort of care.
Me and my roomies are doing better we had a loooonnnnnnggg talk tonight so i think things will be good.
So now I am going to sleep and stop thinking about you know who. |
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| Grrr to hunger |
[Jun. 15th, 2005|12:42 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  hungry | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Foo Fighters | ] |
So I am sitting at the front desk at Knight's Stadium on my lunch duty. I hate lunch duty it makes you so friecken hungry. I hate being hungry too.
So I think that I am going to take people's advice and suck all these emotions up and forget about Stephen. Yes he is my friend but you know what I think its hurting me being so friecken dependant on him. I dont want to cut him out of my life for good but maybe a few weeks while I have games. However much to many people's objections I am going to tell him about it before I do. I think that is the courteous thing to do.
My roommates are driving me crazy they want me to take the trash out when I havent even contributed to the trash. Our kitchen is disgusting. They were jerks about my clothes being in the laundry room. I'm such an outsider to them. I never get included in their plans. And the whole house is theirs except for my one little room. I just want to move out. THat and Cameron is paying less than $200 to live there when I am paying almost $400. What the fuck. I think its time Mel goes out on her own. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 13th, 2005|11:03 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  okay | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Daily Show YAY!! | ] |
Ok so things are ok. I'm going to take everyone's advice and concentrate on figuring out who Mel is without the Stephen. I think that is a good idea. Though I will need some help learning how to be single. So if you all could be nice enought to remember me when you make plans that would be great.
Tonight went well. Me and Stephen seem to be able to get along and put aside every emotion that we might have for each other. I dont work with him for over a week or more and that will be good for me. I really think it will be. I have to try my best not to call him or go to wolfman and visit him. But the good thing is that tomorrow he is bartending and doesnt do that again until Monday. So if i can find myself something to do tomorrow night I will be ok. I think that I will let him call me if he wants to see me. And that will be hard to do. So as long as I stop myself everytime i pick up my phone to text him or call him I should be ok. It will be hard. I have to admit that. I know how hard its going to be. But I can do this. I'm capable of being independant. I really am. I love Stephen and he will be one of my best friends but I need to be single. Its not healthy how attached I am to my relationships. So if you want to take me out to eat that's fine...but I will not get into another exclusive relationship for a while. And if the next exclusive relationship ends up being Stephen again then so be it. I will stop being so clingy to him and stop needing him. I will learn to go more than two days without talking or seeing him. I will learn how to flirt again. I will learn how to just date. I will learn that I am as beautiful as Stephen and Patrick told me. And I will learn that the only person I should be depending on is myself. If I can do all that, then the next relationship I will get into will be the best.
I also have to keep in mind that the next guy I have will be just as wonderful as the past two. And probably just as good looking and I need to stop worrying about being alone. I'm only 21 and I have so many ambitions that I need to not make guys the center of my life. It worries me that I would give up my internship for this last guy. An internship that has made me realize what I want to do with my life and that is alot more than most people can say. I think that if i concentrate on the fact that my life is awesome and Stephen is not gone because we arent together. He is still there and he still cares for me.
I think I will be ok soon. I will stop crying over him and I will move on. I mean he said that he kissed me because he noticed that I had changed but then I relasped back into my obsessive self last night and pissed him off. If in two days I can get him to want to kiss me who knows what two months can do. I still care about him and I still love him alot more than I knew I did. But I'm going to be able to be with out him.
So good night all I will talk to you all tomorrow... |
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| What the hell! |
[Jun. 13th, 2005|02:21 pm] |
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| | hungry | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Grim Adventures of Billy and Mandy | ] |
Ok so normally I dont put anything really really personal in here but I am really frustrated and pissed off that I have to do something and I would like to type it so I will use this.....if any of you want to make a comment on this go right a head but beware of the fack that I might just bite your head off if you arent careful what you say. I've already been hurt enough once so you need to just back off.
Stephen is an asshole. Yes thats right people he is an asshole. Why have I gone from still thinking he is wonderful to agreeing with everyone else that he is an asshole? Let me tell you. So Thursday me and Stephen had a wonderful day together. Or I guess evening he came over and we sat on my bed and talked alot of things out. I thought that we would be fine. You know we could be friends and maybe one day something more. Then Friday he comes over again with out me saying hey Stephen why dont you come over. We are laying on my bed and all of a sudden he grabs me and just hugs me. And then he pulls me on top of him and kisses me. Which was fine and I could have cared less to be honest with you. But then the rest of the weekend I didnt see him at all and I wondered if he kissed me because he regrets his discision or just because at that moment in time he wanted to kiss me. Either way it would have been ok. Then last night me and him worked together actually he tried to train me at the bar. We were fine and we were joking around and goofing off. Then I made the mistake when we left to ask him why he kissed me. I mean I honestly wasnt lead on but at the same time I was just curious. He said that it was a mistake and that was the worst thing that he could say. Then we both get in our cars and just leave. But I decide to call him. We have it out on the phone bitching at each other and things didnt go well. He wants nothing to do with our relationship and doesnt want to even try to fix it. He said its going to be hard even to be friends. Which I think is a load of crap. However we both have to try and he isnt. I mean yes I had a rough night last night and want to talk to him. But him ignoring me is just making it worse. And of top of this I have to work with him tonight and if he doesnt come over and talk to me like I asked him nicely to before we have to work together I think that I might turn into the biggest bitch on the face of the earth to him. And in all honesty he deserves it. I mean I am trying my best to be cool with him and I have even told him that we can be friends with benefits and that would be fine with me. I mean come on people what guy says no to a propostion like that? I mean me and Stephen are so friecken attracted to each other and we both know it. I just dont understand how he could be such and asshole and tell me that kissing me is a mistake. I mean we both know that he wanted to do it. He wouldnt have done it if he didnt want to do it right? Or am I completely wrong about that cause if I am someone please tell me. I dont want to give up on me and Stephen. I think that me and him are going to be wonderful friends. I just need to stop being so pshycotic and obsessive and clingy. I mean to be honest I think that I love him and I think that's why I am having such a rough time letting go of our relationship for good. I'm fine with us being broken up right now however....i just dont know. I mean I dont know how to be single. I have such low selfesteem that I think I am ugly and not attrative enough for guys. However last night Jon was totally flirting with me at the bar last night and he's such a nice guy but the whole time I kept thinking about Stephen. So i have no idea how to be single. I dont know how to just go on dates since I have never been on a real one. I mean I've been on dates but the guys are usually my boyfriend by the end of the night and I just dont know how to do this. I have never even been asked out on just a date. If someone could give me some advice on how to go about this. Please tell me.
Ok typing this all has made me feel alot better. I mean maybe he's not such an asshole. I know that he wanted to kiss me on friday but I wish that maybe I would have the courage to kiss him back. Maybe if he comes over I will pin him down and kiss him. I mean what would he do. If he gets pissed at me oh well. I want to kiss him. I dont want to be his girlfriend. I would just like to be his date or something. But I can handle friends as long as he tries to cause I'm getting real frustrated with him not trying to be friends. We have to be friends outside of Wolfman I mean his home was like my second home and sometimes i even felt more at home there than here. But I guess that takes a while to get over. I mean last time I broke up with someone I started dating someone else within a week. So maybe this will be good for me. Who knows. But if anyone has advice on how to be single let me know. |
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| Weird |
[Jun. 11th, 2005|12:20 pm] |
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| | sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Nothing I'm at the stadium | ] |
Ok so I had a really good day and I have had three good things happen. And I'm a firm believer that good things come in three and now i should have three bad things and karma fucked with me royally last night so I think I should be done with my three bad things. So hopefully three more good things are coming.
If you are confused you need to ask me what I'm talking about. But I hope the one good thing that happened yesterday turns into an even better thing. |
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| What a night |
[Jun. 10th, 2005|11:55 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  giddy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | New Foo Fighters Cd I have a week ahead of time | ] |
OK so me and Stephen finally sat down and talked. And how did that go? Much better than I actually expected. I think that there is an understanding between the two of us that we still like each other its just our relationship wont work right now with our busy schedules. I think something will come out of our friendship, but I only say that based on vibes that I have been getting from him. However I wont sit around and wait for him cause that would be a waste of my time. We did hang out last night. He and me talked and then sat on my bed and continued talking. Then we went to Wolfman together to talk to Sonia and we split a pizza and were on the same tab. Then he took me home cause i didnt drive cause i didnt have my contacts in and instead of just dropping me off he came inside with me and hung out with my roommates and I. Then when he left he hugged me and kissed me on the forehead. It was actually really sweet and I think we both needed a night like that so that we will be ok with each other. I dont know whats going to happen. I think he is going to Boone this weekend. So that might be a good time for him to just think. I'm going to tell him to call me when he gets back. I mean we do work together on Monday and I will see him tonight. I am just really relived that we are friends and that I can hang out with him.
So I'm happy again. Regardless of the fact that I am still single. I am very much attracted to him and I dont need to be with him to have something with him... |
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| Sigh |
[Jun. 8th, 2005|02:31 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  anxious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Code Named Kids Next Door | ] |
So iono what is happening anymore. Me and Stephen have been broken up for over a week and all i want is to sleep with him. I dont know if that's normal or not. But I mean i thought about our relationship and everything was good and perfect except when we had to be boyfriend and girlfriend. I mean we were happy when we were hanging out together and it wasnt stressful. But when we were apart I had different views of what our relationship needed than he did. I just want to have him back in my life. Maybe not as my boyfriend cause i know that isnt going to happen. But I mean I love hanging out with him and seeing him and I just want that back. The problem is I dont know when if ever that will happen. I mean I have to see him in like 30mins for the bartenders meeting and I'm going to gage how he acts around me and maybe i'll see if he wants to go have lunch with me or something. Our situation is alot more difficult than most break ups cause we work together and we have a lot of the same friends though they all have seem to have taken his side in the break up and none of them make an effort to let me know that I'm still cool with them. I just dont know what to do. This is a messed up situation. I mean I went to Australia for 19 days and built up all this excitement to see him and now its still there and I feel so completely unstatisfied. I just have no clue what I am supposed to do. I know that I should just leave him alone and let him come to me. But I dont think that he will. I mean he hasnt really made much effort to have a conversation with me since the break up. Except for monday when he took me outside when he took a smoke break.
Neways. I guess I better head to that meeting now. Even though I just have a bad feeling. I mean i sent him a text to remind him and all i got back was an I know. But I know that he forgets things sometimes. I mean i'm trying to just be friends. I havent brought up our relationship or anything for a while. I want to today though. I just want to see if we can have more. But i know that I am just getting my hopes up. I always do and they always get shot down. Once again my hopes will get shot down. Nothing good seems to want to happen to me in the love aspect of my life. Its as if I am being punished for something. But what the hell did I do. Someone please let something good happen with me and Stephen. |
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| Holy Heat |
[Jun. 6th, 2005|12:16 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  hot | ] |
| [ | music |
| | humming of fan | ] |
Ok dont ever work at a baseball stadium on a 90 degree day when the AC is broken. We are all sweating like pigs let me tell you. I mean why does it have to break on a day like today when we are in the sun and its beating through the windows. And of course I chose to wear my hulter top today which requires me to have to wear my jacket. Thank God for random t-shirts that are laying around. I mean honestly. If they would just get this crap fixed all would be well.
Tonight I'm going to go spend some hard earn money. Iono what I'm going to buy but it will be something good. Then I'm heading to Wolfman to see Stephen for the first time since Friday. But it should be good because I am completely ok with our situation and I think that me and him are going to be alright at the whole friend thing. I mena he is the one person who gets into my head and understands it. I mean that's a feat in itself lately.
But i'll let you all know what actually happens.
Neways back to pretending to work since there is nothing to do at all. |
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| YAY LIFE!!! |
[Jun. 6th, 2005|01:43 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  ecstatic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Weezer that is stuck in my head | ] |
So in the span of one weekend my life went from shity to amazing.....why you may be asking yourself. Well let me just tell you....
1. I only have one cat now which means i can leave my door open and my adorable cat MlkShk can come in and out as he pleases.
2. I am now on of the bartenders at Wolfman and have made over $200 in two nights. How fucking awesome considering I have been wanting to do this since I started work there.
3. Me and Stephen are on good terms now. He told me that mainly he broke up because he didnt want to have a relationship now which is fine. He's still sorta attracted to me and we are going to be good friends. I can tell that already. As long as I stop being such a bitch to him at times. But I think things will look up. I love him to death and would do anything for him regardless if we are together or not. That and I'm still attracted to him so I would hate to give up looking at his sexy body. As lame as I might sound right now.
But now I better go to sleep. I have to work my internship and then I am going to be going and spending some money before I stop by and visit my buddy.
Good Night all |
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| Bad Night |
[Jun. 4th, 2005|01:26 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  indescribable | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Nothing | ] |
Ok when ppl tell you that they have just been drinking their feelings away they are full of shit. And i know that for a fact. Last night I had to work at Wolfman with Stephen for the first time since we broke up. I figured it wasnt going to be that bad cause he was hosting and would leave when he got cut and then come back for beer pong and get drunk and we could hang out. But no. Instead Ryan was feeling sick and gave Stephen his bartending shift which stuck me with him for the whole fucking night. I mean I was glad to be near him but it puts alot of stress on your emotions. Its hard to fake that everything is ok for over 5 hours in front of the person that you are not ok about. I think I had to walk outside like twice in order to not cry in front of him. Then I chose to get drunk. I figured if he can do it then I can do it. I mean I was having fun. I played beer pong with Hunter and we kicked ass. I took a few shots. But it was weird because Stephen was there and this was the first time that he wasnt going to be taking me home with him. I stayed all night. I even helped clean up cause that what I do. Then I was leaving and he ran to walk me to my car. That's when it all hit me. I told him I wasnt ok cause I figured out I was a horrible girlfriend and I made him unhappy and that I had come back planning to make him happy. He said he hasnt seen any change and I can understand that I still bug him, but that's cause there's so much unfinished with our break up. Then he let me get in my car and drive home. Without even offering to let me follow him and Ryan or anything. Which is not like him at all. Then I got home and decided to text him to let him know I was there if he cared and thats when I fucked up and responded to his I'm glad that you did with....something along the lines of what does it matter its not like I want to be here and you let me get in my car you would have never done that. Then I asked him to let me know that he made it home and he responded with what does it matter. And that was the last I heard from him for a while. I sat in my car crying. Everything hit me while I was drunk all the emotions that I have been holding back for the whole week just flooded me. I'm tired of sleeping with out him at night and I miss him so much. I just cant push this. I think that me and Stephen are done for good. I'm pretty much sure there is no chance for us to be. I want to be friends tho and I want him to be happy still. And I want to sit and talk to him and tell him all this. I'm just waiting for him to respond to that text.
If anyone has any genuine advice on any of this please pass it along. I would greatly appreciate that. |
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| Oh weird days |
[Jun. 2nd, 2005|10:27 pm] |
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| | nervous | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Saddly I'm watching Dragon Ball GT | ] |
So i go to Australia and realize how awful I was to Stephen and was completely ready to change and make him happy again and not be such a butt head. But before I could he made the decision to break up because he wasnt happy. I cant let him be unhappy but at the same time I didnt figure so much out to not at least get a chance. I wrote him a long letter with everything in it since I dont think I'd be able to say it in person. I'm sitting at home now waiting for him to call and let me know what he thinks. But he hasnt yet. I'm giving him till 11 and then texting him cause I need to get some stuff from his house and I want to know when I can. I wont mention the letter. I keep wondering if he threw it away but there is no reason for me to even be supicious of that. I trust him. That's one of the things I began to understand while I was gone. I have this tendancy to jump to conclusions and not give him the benefit of the doubt. I just doubt him before he ever gives me a reason to. He has never given me a reason to doubt him or stop trusting him. So I'm going to be patient. I wont bring up the letter until he does unless he never does. Then I think I have the right to say something. At least I hope so. But for all I know he could not be home yet and could not have read the letter yet so there is no reason to overreact. I did last night when I tried to call and he didnt answer. I figure he just didnt want to talk to me anymore, but he called me back so I was wrong. I just need to work to stay in the mind set that I got in when I was gone. That will help.
I really hope that this isnt the end of me and Stephen. I really enjoy him in all ways but I know that he was unhappy. Maybe if I can show him that I can make him happy again things will be good. But only time will tell and I will not get my hopes up. That always just end up bad.
Other than that life is going ok. I'm trying to get back on a normal schedule and start eating again. But its quite difficult. Oh well things happen. I'm so glad to be back that's for sure. |
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| Two more to go |
[May. 28th, 2005|01:10 pm] |
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| |  refreshed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Jailbird Rock | ] |
So that was quite funny Bri and Jonathan. Thanks for argueing in my journal..
Today is the free day in Aussie. I have nothing to do and its wonderful cause I am so tired of running around everywhere. We got up late which was nice.
Neways. Almost time for home. |
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| Home Soon |
[May. 27th, 2005|06:58 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  grateful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Aussie Music | ] |
I'm on my last few days in Australia before the lllllooooonnnngggg flight home. Its only a 23 hour travel day this time as pertain to a 35 hour one last time...
I'm ready to go home. Of course that could be cause I have run out of money and and running on scraps that I have left. I have like $30 for the next two days and we have to buy every meal on our own. That just stinks.
I want to see everyone when I get back and tell them all about my trip. I'm so greatful to get to come here and I really have had the time of my life......The Greenday song is my theme song for this trip cause that truely explains what this has felt like. Australia is beautiful and amazing and I recommend that if you get the chance to come. You wont regret it the plane ride is worth it times a million...
Cant wait to get home now....Miss you all |
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| Long time no write |
[May. 23rd, 2005|09:33 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Technoish music | ] |
So I'm in Australia now sitting with my buddy Amanda in the internet cafe down the street.
This place is beautiful I love it here. If I didnt realize all the good things I have at home I wouldnt want to go back. But I do at some point. I might come back again one day and live in the tropics how lovely that would be.
This trip has been amazing. Its one of those experiences where you start hanging out with ppl you otherwise would never do so. I've made tons of friends and can see myself calling them to go out when I get home
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